Wrote this on my phone so it might look like crap lol

Maybe I'm just being negative or in a rough patch but I can't seem to do anything right apparently. It's hard for me to not just jump to the "it's about my looks" thing because besides that I'm doing great. I can start and hold conversations, escalate and so on but can't seem to get laid. My friend is taller, dark and looks better but says a lot of awkward stuff and can't really talk to girls but he's getting laid when we go out and I'm not. I don't understand. I invited these 2 girls to play Frisbee yesterday @ the beach, introduced myself and my buddy and did all the heavy work and then the one girl says later in the hotel room "we arent having sex or anything but you can eat me out if you want". I honestly believe if I looked better it would not have been like that and she would have gave it up like her friend did. I didn't go down on her because I'm pretty picky about who I go down on but like damn am I just picking the wrong girl, not pushing myself more or just accepting defeat too easily? I feel lost and just venting I suppose but I'm fucking lost and don't know what the fuck to do anymor . I feel like giving up but I know that's the wrong thing to do, it's just hard to keep failing and failing without seeing any progress.