You'd think after doing it hundreds of times I'd start to learn from my mistakes but I just keep failing over and over again. I never get any better at attracting women I just keep being boring and or awkward/creepy and shy. I try to pump myself up before the date but then once I'm in front of a person I turn into a complete retard every single time. This never gets any easier. The only times I ever have any success I think 'Yes, I finally didn't act like a retard', then a few dates later the girl will usually tell me 'Yeah I thought you were a fucking weirdo at first'. I guess some people just aren't born for this and have to rely purely on luck or a brain transplant to be cool around women. It's a fucking abysmal feeling.