When I imagine some beautiful girl who genuinely loves me for who I am with all my flaws... I Cannot help but I am crying Just typing this...

In fact, lately, i cry a lot because of my zero succes with women, my low self esteem and poor social life. I think in this state of mind - even if I would find some girl, how could she love me when I almost hate myself? I would end up being more hurt after she would broke up with me!

Could you guys give me some advice on this?