I just wanted to tell on myself. I'm noticing thoughts and behaviors lately that are cause for concern.

I took a couple years to work on myself and stayed out of the game. I had a bad drug addiction and it caused me to put everything on hold and make some serious self improvements.

Well, I'm sober now, and have gotten back to school and doing well.

I'm a bit lonely and I could definitely use some sex. But I keep putting it off.

Lately I've found that my celibate time has kind of wiped the slate and I feel really off kilter and awkward. Shy. I've forgotten how to do it.

I've never tried to date sober before. I've been so focused on school that time keeps slipping by and now I havent been with a girl in more than two years. I'm not sure how to start. The time away from girls has caused me to forget how to do it. I've lost my mojo.

I've tried OLD for the first time and it has been a total disappointment.

In that time, I have slowly developed a fear and doubts. Its gaining power and the fear is mixing with bitterness.

I hope I'm not slipping from being a cel to an incel.

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How can I turn this ship around?