I'm having this issue which I'm struggling to get over. To be honest, it's just the whole hypocrisy of the situation which I don't know what to do about

I started developing "my inner game" about a year ago before I ever even knew what seddit was or that this world really existed. Pretty much I read Fahrenheit 451 and had an existential crisis, and at the time realised that 1. I had no-one in the world to confide to and 2. I never actually confided in myself. I just accepted the flow of things at face-value (which roughly translates to accepting my thoughts which I see talked a lot about here).

So I started reading more and more in order to try to figure out who I actually am. Learning more and more from this I realised that all these extra sensations that I was addicted to, from scratching an itch to trying to make myself look good to others, to my dreams of the future were pretty much meaningless and pointless.

That the only thing that really matters is the present, and if you can't enjoy the present, you will never enjoy the future. I could go on and on about free will, the nature of perception... but that's not what I need help with. The important thing is I know that -at times- my inner games can be strong.

Through all this time I was and am socially inept, but recently after a poor conversation with a girl I realised that even though it was horrible, I made much more progress than I've done in recent times. And rather than feel depressed and glum like I usually would, I was able to finally associate a positive NGAF feeling to it. But I'm still just a beginner.

But I've noticed I have a massive problem when approaching women. The moment before I attempt to, part of me almost always starts doubting the legitimacy of the action I'm about to do. That if I already achieved some sense of inner peace where I don't care for the rest of the world in a good or bad way, then there is no reason I should feel the need to approach her.

The other part of me tells me to shut the fuck up and go with it, which leads to it all my inner game flying out the window.

Essentially, I'm having trouble being at peace with myself and being a value giver while at the same time actively look for women (as if there is something more that I need in my life, where, when I'm in my best frame of mind, I know that I don't).

Has anyone else had this problem? How did you overcome it?