I'll try to sum this up by time periods, I've been an incel my whole life, I am 30 years old. I will start the timeline from where I hit puberty and was interested in women for the first time.

13-16 Attended an all boys special ed school. Female staff members were my only contact. Couldn't flirt as I/them would get into trouble.

15-18 Attended youth club partly during school vacations and then mostly when I left school. The chicks were not very friendly to me and already in their social groups that they had at their local school. There was this one chick I had a oneitus for, who had a massive social group which I couldn't hope to penetrate. I often just attended that youth club to see her and I had dreams where I was talking to her, but couldn't achieve that in real life.

17-20 Towards the end of my attendance of the youth club I went to community college to study ICT. No chicks on course/didn't know about day game. Some chicks used to try to talk to me on occasion (like in the cafeteria or as I would walk past the smoking area) but I didn't really know how to reciprocate other than answering basic questions.

20-22 Went to uni (college, for you Americans) studied ICT, no chicks on course. Didn't know about day game and didn't even have the odd bit of attention from chicks. There were some hot ones walking around the campus, but I never knew about day game to interact with them.

22-28 Not around chicks or any "young people" anymore. Had a few temp manual labour jobs, like on a construction site, as an industrial cleaner, mail man, van yard, etc. No chicks around these areas. Spent long periods of time unemployed sitting in my childhood bedroom.

28-30 Tried day game, had a few nice conversations, not much more. A lot of rejections and confused/aggressive chicks wondering why the fuck I was bothering them in the middle of the street. Can't really see how I would get laid from it. Also had some bad experiences with mall security and once even stopped by a cop who said concerns were raised by a local person about my behaviour. Again, long term unemployed so I don't really feel a part of society and even if a chick does stop to talk, I feel like I am merely imitating being a normal person.

Basically with how isolated and weird my life has been, I feel like I'm not going to be a very attractive prospect for a female. On top of that, I live a weird life where I still live at home in my 30s and I'm currently feeling like I'm never going to be employed again at the moment. The few periods of employment I have had have been sporadic.

I feel like I am the only person here with this kind of bleak life. Most people my age have been in a stable job for the past 5+ years. But here I am, drifting, at 30.