I'm aware I'm probably over thinking it, but as David Wygant put it: I need to turn off the monkey chatter in my brain. I'm not sure if I just suck at conversation (I'm a bit of a shut-in), but I'm trying to practice as much as possible in any way, shape, or form I can.

I'm really just looking for some pointers, but it's really gotten bad. I don't even know what to say to people I wouldn't normally take an interest in, but I'm so desperate (another huge part of the problem) I even had gay sex the other night. I'm not trolling you.