I spent years being thirsty and dreaming of having a vibrant dating life with plenty of girls, the last period of my life I experienced abundance, I get more attention and opportunities than I can handle, which is amazing compared to old times where I was in scarcity, but I felt it was still too emotionally draining for me to fully enjoy it and be like the fantasy I envisioned of having lots of sex and great fun with multiple women. So I felt I still had to game too much for my succes with women to fit well into my life and be a perfect match with lots of work on myself and my career. So now I feel I am starting to reach that next level where it’s all relatively effortless, but guess what, again it’s not what I expected and again it’s not paradise. I am writing this for the people that are in the beginning of their journey to maybe adjust expectations of completing life when they can get sex and also for the guys ahead of me to maybe give me some advice. The issue I am experiencing at this level is on one hand I feel i need to keep gaming, dating new women regularly to keep the abundance and the accompanying abundance mindset, also to keep improving on my weak points, to keep going out of my comfortzone and to keep my game sharp. On the other hand I feel like I am and in a way I just am ,using people, I’m in no way an asshole or lying to people, but I really hate rejecting people, ending things, telling someone after a date that I missed a spark or just seeing in someone’s eyes they like me more than I like them, leaving after sex and not staying over when they want me too. These things just don’t feel good and totally destroy my image of that happy positive fun life with tons of sex