Hi, if you have seen me post, you would notice I might come across like I’m hard on myself because I am. I made another texting mistake and this mistake was me texting a girl who wanted me to go to this rave with. (Btw there’s a huge snow storm this today) but she emphasized me to be very careful saying “if I were you I would go just be careful plz be careful” and “I would go but idkkk”.

I then responded with “It’d be fun if you do but don’t put yourself at risk tho.I don’t want you to get hurt or stuck somewhere” and I guess she took it as me saying not to go and her saying “if there was a miracle sure but safety first” this took 20 mins after my last reply and it’s been slow asf since. I had a feeling I messed it up and I can’t stop tweaking out about it.

This isn’t the first time and it prob won’t be the last time. It’s not just about being busy that I think can help me but it’s also why am I so close to the things that I want and yet it only takes one tiny mistake to undo all my progress? I want to live freely from this but can’t deny my human instincts of wanting stuff like this to happen. I don’t think she could’ve came since its like an hour and an half to

Come to the rave from where she lives but she at least wanted me to continue the banter. Again, I hade made mistakes like these with plenty of women and I just want to learn to forgive myself.