I'm trying to figure out what the hell I am doing wrong. I am sporting the man bun. But, I dress nice. - Now, when I interact with females at work, I think they like me. I swear they like me; but, it's work and I can't hit on females at work.

Now when I go to the store, or out to the bar or something; I am completely invisible to women most of the time. It has been 2 months, and I still have not done a single approach. I take that back, I did do ONE approach about a month ago; I made a joke to two women at Walmart.

I think I have some inner game issues. Some stuff going on on my personal life that is preventing me; not sure. Just some slight dramatic stuff with an ex of mine.

Other than that, I'm trying to figure out how to get into the groove; but I can't. It's really weird. I don't have a social life. Was trying to build one; then all of a sudden my ex wants to say shes suicidal causing me to have to "Rescue" her. (Some bullshit)

I'm not giving up tho; it's been two months. Women, when I am out and about seem to not be very receptive. Depends on location etc.

Also I want to touch up on this Nofap thing. I've been doing Nofap for about 4 years. I'm not sure if it's helping or hurting. At times, I feel completely socially retarded and brain dead. Basically go 50 days at a time w/o ejaculation; not looking at any women or even thinking about a woman sexually.

It keeps me super productive. But I'm not the most social, or relaxed guy you meet. I'm pretty loud and tense, and pent up; somtimes aggressive 80% of the time. There ya have it. THoughts?

I have thought about something else. Night clubs. I have always hated night clubs. But I am open to exposing myself to night clubs because I think lots of women go there? What I mean by that is, just going out there alone, sitting down at the bar and getting hit with all of the anxieties and fears to just get through it. I was about to do something like that when my ex called said she was "Suicidal" - and I thought to myself.

God.. fucking dammit.. Set me back a couple of days.

But still, online gaming I don't want to waste my time. With Nofap, I do feel there are some strange moments at work where women seem very receptive, and submsisive, etc. SO I feel that has helped a lot.

/end rant.