Fuck it I can't not be needy, I've been rejected all my life, if I ever want to have sex I need to pay for it. Fuck all of this and fuck this fucking world. I might as well just hire some worthless hooker and then hang myself afterwards. Fuck it I'm too much of a pussy, I'll try to get a hooker and kill myself in shame. In fact, if I'm still a virgin when I start college I'll end my fucking life, because dating isn't about liking anyone, it's about sex, sex and nothing else, that's why I shouldn't care if I'm ever rejected, because she was just a living fleshlight and I was a fool for actually liking her personality. I fucking hate all of this