I've been having a TON of sex lately. I had my first threesome with two women two weekends ago and during the following week had sex with three other women. Last weekend however I ran into a someone who had seen me pick up other women and was able to sidestep my advances. She just wanted to be friends because she didn't want to be "like all the other girls." 2 dates later she cooks me dinner, we open a bottle of wine and we end up in bed together. The whole night was amazing and I can't stop thinking about her.

I can't seem to stop impulsively sending her every witty or interesting thought that pops into my head. I haven't gone out or hit on anyone else. I keep thinking I want to be in a relationship with her while im WITH her, but as soon as I leave I feel like a total moron for letting myself think that a relationship with her is what I wanted.

I try my best to ignore her while these feelings fade but as soon as I unlock my phone and see a message from her I become instantly happier. If i don't have a text from her it feels like my heart is free falling in my chest.

Realizing all these feelings is making me feel disgusting. I don't even fucking know this person.

TL:DR I kind of want to puke.