So to keep it simple, I have this on and off friend for the past 4 years who is also in my friend group or at least knows the same mutual I do . Over these 4 years I have been sharing some tension with her sexually and romantically. Also during those 4 years I was incredibly oblivious to social interactions although I did get better.

So 2 years ago while she had a mans, I made the mistake of confession how I felt and asked for a kiss. She rejected it and it made things awkward and everybody knew. Another instant where we hiked together with our other friends and there was so many romantic signals from each other but of course I didn’t wanna come to any conclusions. Some other shit happened between that and the current situation but this post would be too long.

Anyways I went with my friend to see her on her birthday party to go bar hopping. It was a small group and I haven’t seen her in a year. So it was awkward at first, we both didn’t say a word to each other but definitely to other people. Fast forward and I spazzed out on my friend for being abandoned and she came in trying to fix this situation. We were all drunk so it escalated in public. She then calmed me down and confessed how she loved me multiple times, rubbing my back, arms, everything. Btw this was our first interaction of the whole night.

We hugged and she smirked while staring at my lips.I was too hesitant to a point where I couldn’t even say it back until she left. Some more shit happened after but I’m curious to see if I should’ve made a move or if I shouldn’t to avoid the same outcome as last time? Also I can’t help but be distressed about this. I really do love this girl. Edit: love in more than just romantically but platonically as well. Also i have other gfs before but nothing emotionally gravitating like how i am with her.