The fact that you're afraid of women means its hard for you to see them.

I remember the first time I realized I didn’t have enough hands and mouth and dick for all the naked women near me who wanted me and how it felt to have to partition out my energy because there wasn’t enough of me for all of them - and how that raised my energy in that moment until there was enough of me for all of them. And how that changed their energy for me. I remember feeling like I was tending to their hunger and how giving made them want more until they pushed past exhaustion and had them all sleeping in my arms. I remember looking at how small and beautiful they all were (and how young they seemed even though some were my age) and realizing how little it takes to be there for others and how much I had to give and how profoundly it hit me: these beautiful giving loving women had so much to give, and had to persist and subsist on scraps from men who neither see nor understand them and what they have to offer, who lie to impress them, who leave them broken and discarded and used but don’t even bother to “use” their full potential and how much of a waste that is, how empty and disconnected that seems. And how peaceful they all were, inside my world of safety and protection (which was just me, just presence).

I was about 27 or 28 when I first figured this out. I don't think I possess anything unique that allows me to be capable of this. I believe this is a fairly universal potential, whatever level you'd call this.

Strong benevolent connection means others will literally experience their reality differently around you. You literally exist by changing the world. And the thing is, this is already true, and you're probably afraid to use the vast potential of your power.