Evening/morning/afternoon gents-

Meeting with the lawyer next week. It’s go time. We’re going to draw up the papers and serve notice .

TLDR I don’t want to puss out.
And if I don’t puss out I have to get out. Bitch is crazy

Here’s the thing, I’m really nervous. Already riddled with anxiety and guilt. I’m choosing to break up our family. Sort of. There gonna be better off in the long run but it’s gonna suck for a while.

She is incapable of caring for me, taking responsibility or apologizing, gaslighting, uses sex as currency/weapon, can’t compromise. Has said some of thr most fucked up vile shit . If you’re feeling bad, she’ll blame me for putting her in a bad mood. We literally can’t have a simple conversation. She’s incapable of listening and responding. It’s driving me insane. Now that we are empty nesters, I find myself talking to myself because I’m so lonely. I will admit I’m a good conversationalist lol. Plus, my lab is always at my feet so I can use him as an , my STBX is a covert narcissist. I love her but she is incapable of accepting she is the problem and there is zero treatment for NPD.. I also fucking despise her. She’s good at love bombing. But this time it’s different. Even my pandora is hyping me up. Last song was ‘Time for me to fly’.

I know what I have to do. I could use some encouragement to make sure I don’t give into the guilt. I’m ready. I enjoy being alone. Been back in the gym, I meditate. I’m ready to buy this chaos away.