I'm losing hope. Filed for divorce in March. I moved out last month because she told me if I didn't, she would say I beat her and call the police. Beginning of this month, the morning of temp meditation, she filed charges from December to March with a bunch of bull from me beating her, to me beating kids. Go to the court, and she claims she signed the mediation agreement under duress from her lawyer that granted me time with the kids. DCF says they left our house because they felt unsafe from the way she is acting but didn't remove the kids. She lied in court, saying she never used our parent communication app, and that she never sent text messages asking me to be next to her for her safety as she was having panic attacks after her accusations. I got an email I moved the guns out of the house for my safety earlier in the month. The judge still grants an injunction.

Meanwhile, I turn in a video of her threatening the kids if they say she hit me, they would be homeless, then offers marijuana to our 17-year-old, and then makes fun of her for not taking it, and guess what. Nothing. I got more videos of her yelling and screaming at the kids, nothing else criminal, but not sure if it's even worth it anymore.

She has a neuropsychologist call me the day before the court, almost screaming at me,e saying I need to admit to what I did. I found out this week she isn't even licensed in this state. She had a social worker license that expired two years ago.

I did get a new lawyer as my previous one was more of wait and see. The new one is much more of a fighter, but I'm wondering if the damage is already done. I haven't seen the kids in over a month. She just says the kids are in fear of me, as they are crying in the vehicle.

I'm really wondering if the courts even care anymore. Sorry if I'm all over the place. I just cannot seem to wrap my head around it all.