In the attempt to unfuck myself up and truly embody what a real man, an alpha male should be, i am doing research and looking for role models in movies, series, documentaries, books, ANYTHING.

I am fucking tired to feel, think and act like a groundless boy, I want to become a great man, but I have a hard time figuring out what this actually feels like, and books and courses do not do this justice, it lacks the flavor, the feeling. I need to be in the proximity of alphas or have a clear picture of how to be an alpha male (in ALL aspects of life), how he acts on a day-to-day basis, how he deals with resistance, excuses, doubt etc. Needless to say that i was raised by women, far from any positive masculine role model i could learn from.

I read tons of recommended books like Meditations, Iron John and The Way of Men but i learn by feeling and doing (kinesthetic learner), not only reading and trying to figure out by intellect.