I've had so many matches on dating apps and even in real life where I just don't answer messages. She sends me a message and I just stare at it for days in my notification bar and then delete it. It preoccupies my mind so much that I procrastinate sending that text back. There is so much resistance to sending that text back that I'd rather just not do it, and that's what typically ends up happening, and invariably I feel like she didn't reply back to me somehow...

Why am I like this? I just hate texting so much... Should I call instead? Maybe I hate people in general and just don't want to deal with generating funny thoughts and things to make her laugh or "deep" flirty messages and would rather just skip the whole thing and be connected... But you can't skip that part can you.

Maybe I'm just on my bipolar rant about how much I hate the dating scene where everything is an emotional race to the bottom, where the only way to succeed is to become a psychopath and not have feelings anymore. Where love doesn't truely exist and you become a mark if you genuinely try to fall in love with someone.