There are too many details here to get into, it's a story close to a year in the making, but here's an outline:

  • Was in love with girl, dated her for 3.5 years (I was 18 and she was 15, now I'm 22 and she's 19), were planning to marry (we're both Christians, so we were essentially courting for marriage)
  • She dumps me sporadically one day "to get closer to God"
  • I'm heartbroken and lose the girl I was in love with
  • "Kisses" some guy that same week
  • Comes back and says she wants me back, mentions kiss
  • Says she left me cause she thought this guy could bring her closer to God and that I was a bad influence on her faith
  • Says he tried to get her to do "stuff" further than just kissing, but she resisted and that's when she realized she wanted me back
  • Lies to me for 3 months about what actually happened with the guy, so...
  • I talk to the Other Guy. He seems cool. He tells me everything within an hour on the phone and it was more than just a kiss
  • Says both were half-naked (clothes pulled up/down) in back of car, fingering her, sucking on her tits, her jacking him off, finally finishing him on her chest. And it was fully consensual (he says she was VERY into it)
  • This was a guy who I caught her planning to meet up with secretly a few years ago and I told her to stop talking to him, I thought he was gone
  • I tell ex I have the true story
  • She starts crying saying she was sexually assaulted and didn't want any of it. She says he was aggressive and she was scared to resist or leave. She says she jacked him off "to make it stop". She says she was in denial about it and couldn't bring herself to tell me. She says she didn't want anything with that guy, and even though she broke up with me, she was still in love with me and wanted me
  • Now that this "sexual assault" story is on the table, she's gone all pro-active and changed her phone number and blocked him, and told all her friends that he's a "bad guy", you know putting on the whole empowerment show
  • I say fuck you, cut off all contact
  • Month later, horny, call back and ask how she is
  • She says she's lonely because she can't fuck anymore because she doesn't trust guys (I roll my eyes thinking "are you really still sticking to that story??")
  • We agree to meet and fuck, but only to fuck, nothing more
  • That was 2 months ago. We talked for a month and fucked about a dozen times and then she started asking me if I still love her, if I could see myself with her again, etc, so I break it off and block her again
  • She's been blocked on my phone for 2 weeks, but she's come over twice to "talk" and we've ended up fucking both times
  • I've kept in contact with the other guy since we spoke earlier in January and we've even hung out a few times, he's never given me a bad sign or come off as someone who lies or would sexually assault someone
  • She's still coming over even though she's blocked and she said it's because she wants to "fight for what she wants" and wants to prove to me that I can come to trust her again and that with time I'll come to believe that she was really sexually assaulted. She's apologized hundreds of times by now and is trying hard to win back my affection but I'm not returning it. She's even sat me down and confessed the entire story start to finish, like the other guy did, but in her own words so that I would hear it from her (she says the other guy is a liar, so she wanted to straighten out any "lies" he might've told me). She even confesses they kissed once before the night she told me about while we were together, and that they kissed several times after the night she was "molested" simply cause she was in denial about that night and acted like it never happened (I was also back in the picture by now while this was going on)
  • Other Guy confirms all this happened during that one night, but there were other occasions of kissing
  • She says she was stupid and immature and needed that to happen to realize to never trust guys (?)
  • What the fuck is going on
  • She's still horny as fuck and I have a feeling she'll continue coming over, even if "just to fuck" (maybe she has female oneitis?), but something in me just feels like it's wrong due to the fact that I hated her for so long for the lies and emotional abuse she put me through for 3 months
  • Personally I don't believe she was molested. I believe she dumped me to try and get with the other guy, put out that night with him to try to lock him down, and then turned on him once she realized he didn't want a relationship with her

How do I proceed here?