So let me just say she has worked me into a real bind over the years and I let her do it. Hindsight being 2020 and all. I have no friends left thanks to her torpedoing every friendship I had prior to meeting her and any I tried to have after putting the collar around my neck. Snide remarks, hissy fits when I wanted to hang out with them after work etc, to plain out threats of leaving or some other bullshit. It got to the point where I just said fuck it and stayed home because I didn't want to deal with the bullshit. I even encouraged HER to make friends and go out but nope never even tried.

Now she started a huge thing with what little family I had left AFTER I told her to not stick her nose into what didn't concern her. But she did it anyway and although I didn't have the best or strongest relationship with my dad I still had something. Her family is shit and they are all miserable fucks that talk shit.abojt each other and cause nothing but problems. Had to deal with their bullshit for 20 plus years before I told her enough was enough I was done pretending to like them when she would want me to take her around them. So yea she isolated me and I let her because I thought that's what a man is supposed to do to keep his family together. Because if she don't get her way oh god watch out then the tantrums start, the manipulation etc.

Just a couple weeks ago when I had my fill of all the bullshit she dishes out, kids arguing, dogs raising hell, I decided it was a great time to go get a haircut. She tried everything under the sun to keep me home because she thought I was going to talk shit about her to the chick who cuts my hair, which knows how she is so I have no need to talk shit about her, we have to keep appearances up and all. No one knows the real bitch behind the mask she wears. And the ones that do know that side of her she tries to convince them otherwise or we just don't associate with them.

I have tried time and time again to have my own thing. Emails, Facebook, myspace when that was a thing, Discord. But Everytime I get an account she DEMANDS the username and password and if I don't give them to her she has a meltdown. But the ONE time I tell her I want her email accounts, which there are atleast 12 that I know of, and passwords she actually deletes 2 of them immediately. Lol like I don't know why she did that shit. I was born at night whore but it wasn't last night. But she actually installed spyware on my phone and put trackers as well to see where I am at all times. I just found these last two things in the last month or so..So even if I don't hand over my shit to her she gets into it anyway. AFTER I HAVE TOLD HER REPEATEDLY TO STAY OUT OF MY SHIT IT IS NOT YOURS TO SNOOP THROUGH. And no I am not hiding ANYTHING it is just the principle, it is MY account you have no business being in it.

Now she has Lupus and every horrible symptom you can think of associated with it, AFTER she reads on the jnternet what other people have said, including the kidneys and liver. She stays in bed most of the time sleeping then wakes up bitching at me for any myriad of reasons ranging from I don't believe her, kind of hard to do when you have every symptom after you read about it, to no one loves her or cares about her asks how she is feeling, when that is all we hear about, that she feels like a burden and a waste, yes this I can agree with it, and it's too god damn much. I'm done hearing it is always my fault, she does no wrong, says nothing wrong etc.

I am not in love with her anymore but I still care about her why I don't know and I don't want to see her hurt herself because she has threatened suicide in the past when I have had enough of her shit and start getting shit together to leave and guilts me into staying.

Now her new thing is she will tell everyone I was abusive and show them pictures of her bruises, she gets them from falling or running into things because of her Lupus she is low in iron and she now bruises easily. I have only ever picked her up, moved her to the side out of my way because she was blocking the door and would not.move after repeatedly being asked to move so I can leave. That is the extent of physical contact that's ever occured and that was in the beginning.

I'm not sure what to do because we all know if she were to call the cops and accuse me of abusing her my ass will go to jail because of said bruises, although her doctor for the lupus knows she has fallen more than a few times in the past year. But I don't want to take a chance that the law will believe her bullshit and I get arrested and charged for some bullshit I have never done.

Anyone have any advice I would greatly appreciate it. I'm at the end of my rope here.