My wife filled for divorce back in July, I just went on a downward spiral, my lawyer had advised me to stay in the home to make sure I had adequate time with our son and to make sure my assets and belongings were not being destroyed, I eventually had gotten back on my feet and in the “groove” of the things. But last month (September) I just had fallen back off the wagon and went back into a depression, I do multiple activities to keep my mind occupied and to stay busy but it is getting to the point to where I can’t stop thinking about the situation and my mind makes me dwell on the fact of I am not going to have my family that I have known for close to ten years anymore. I don’t want my son growing up going back and forth between homes; our marriage was never bad we had are disagreements but never a “knock down blow out” per say. But this divorce was just so sudden it’s literally put me into the darkest part of my life and it just keeps getting worse as the end gets closer. But I am moving out next weekend and it just feels like that will be me “throwing in the towel on my marriage” and I know I am probably beating a dead horse but this is the single most hard thing I have ever experienced.