Hello everyone, I been a lurker on here for a while. I got introduced to TRP when I was 18 years old and I am now 25 (M). I have been in therapy for the past couple of years and I just hit a breakthrough on why I fell for TRP ideologies plus developed resentment towards women. What I realized is that I hated my own vulnerability and I covered up this hatred for my own vulnerability by blaming women. I was exposed to porn at just 8 years old but I recently quit 4 months ago and me being exposed to pornography at a very young age has programmed my body to only respond to "intimacy" without the vulnerability. As soon as I start to feel vulnerable around a woman for something she did or said that made me feel insecure I would automatically be repulsed by them. This created a vicious pattern of me avoiding women and this led me to start blaming them for my inability to be vulnerable because of their lack of ability to control themselves or that they only want to be with a certain type of guy, etc. Realizing this made me realize this is what TRP is actually about. Its not about men hating women, its about mens hatred for their own vulnerability around women, and the negative beliefs about women increase their hatred towards it even more because they feel even more vulnerable the further they believe in the red pill. Its a negative cycle and its only going to end if they start to feel comfortable with their own vulnerability.