I met this girl on saturday (november third) at a paintball game.

I had a great time with her. At the end of the paintball game one of her girl friends told me that they were both going to a party afterwards and I was welcomed to come. I took that as a sign of interest.

But I don't like parties so I didn't go.

I had a great time with her so I miss her. I've actually been going for 4 years without any contact with girls so I have as much of a scarcity mentality as it's humanly possible I believe.

So I stalked her. I asked 3 people for her number including the girl that told me about the party. None of them had it but the girl told me she is on facebook and gave me her name so I added her on facebook.

And now I feel like a clown who made a fool of himself publicly. I mean seriously. Adding her on facebook made me think "what the fuck am I doing"

I erased my friend request on facebook and I'm considering accepting the loss and moving the fuck on.

So yeah. She isn't even beautiful or anything. It's just that I've not had any kind of physical contact with a girl for 4 years. So yeah.