I've always been a romantic, like the retro traditional kind of romantic who daydreams. But now after failed relationships with men, I've become kind of more clever and self-centered in a way. Like, I learned how to analyze their behavior and pick up red flags instead of simply excusing it. I notice that after a break up, i go through a period of rage then try to cope with by reading books and writing, and I start to feel better. I used attract fake "nice" boys, like the kind of lovebomb you then start treating you like total crap when you're not doing sexual flavors or situationship kind of guys. I used to give off maniac pixie dream girl vibes through my creativity and blunt personality. But now my bluntness and sternness is more refined; which helps repel those men. Like once you start respecting yourself, and not fall for emotional traps - figuring out what kind of man you want is easier. It's like an automatic filter. I'm in a young and almost delicate part of my life, and I realized I should be working hard on myself instead of being a dumping ground for some kind of porn-addicted douchebag.