I'm currently trying to get rid of the sexism in my mind over the last couple years. One of the most difficult parts has to do with political things. Like abortion.

I consider myself pro-choice currently, but I still sometimes feel like PL. I don't speak for all pro-life, of course. But personally, deep down, I have this desire to just screw people over. This satisfaction when people who actually have sex get into trouble precisely because of the sex. It feels like "poetic justice". I know it's wrong, and I try to repress it.

I also get angry when certain governments start giving condoms and pills for free to people. As a med student, I know why they do that. People are going to have sex, there's no way to stop it. So we need to keep pregnancies and diseases in check. But I can't help but feel bad that my tax money is going to someone's condom...

How do I get rid of those feelings?