Where does confidence or self worth come from, how can I feel like the prize or that I’m worthy of beautiful women.

I see so many guys who are confident for no reason and they kill it with women. Guys in severe debt, no future, no nothing. But they’re brainwashed into thinking they’re the shit. They walk around acting like douchebags they’re better than everyone.

I don’t know where their confidence comes from. Its like their brain only sees “oh this car feels like a kings car, this weed makes me feel like a king, this music I’m living through vicariously makes me feel like a king so I must be a king”.

Its like they don’t see that they are in debt with no future or nothing, like they’re too stupid to feel inadequate or notice they’re worthlessness.

Meanwhile I feel like shit, I’m stressed with school, although I have a good future I feel like a failure because these exams keep fucking me and making me feel inadequate.

And I’m too conscious, I know all my faults and shortcomings and shit. Not strong enough good looking smart etc on and on.

I just can’t see how to feel good enough from a logical standpoint. I feel like I have to turn my brain off and somehow just delude myself into feeling like I’m the shit and projecting that energy instead of how I truly feel.

I guess fake it till you make it.

I used to kill it with girls before I realized they had 20 other guys in their DM’s that where bigger stronger and smarter and shit with me. I did better when I was ignorant and just FELT good. Or before school humbled me and showed me how stupid I really am. Or before I knew how little I know about game. Back before girls who didn’t like me was a reflection of my lack, and I just said huh they must be stupid. Back before I knew about shit tests or frame, or realized I have to be strong, back before I had no self awareness.