I ended up at a birthday party from a friend of a friend. And there after a couple of hours I saw my crush make out with a random guy who just tossed of his shirt. I really feel like I just don't deserve it. Like I just don't deserve to be loved. I'm so sick of it. All I want is one person of those billions of people on this earth to love me and every time I catch feelings, I end up with a massive slap in my face. Please, somebody help me, I don't want this anymore...