Guys Im wondering if its common for u as well to feel jealous. I never had a girl so maybe it has to do a lot with jealousy. I would like to know your opinion on this. Basically, to put it simple it kinda hurts me when girl say things that make me feel like one of many, I feel like just a number for her.

To explain better I will give some examples. Recently I sent girl picture from hotel where airline company that I work for puts us in particular destination. She says if the company changed accomodation and she mentioned previous one as well. Making it clear basically she already hook up with pilots/cabin crew from my company before, most likely multiple times as she knew previous hotel as well. Dont wanna sound like some pussy but to be honest it hurts. To suddenly realize that Im for just another cabin crew hook up. It makes me feel very unimportant and one of many.

2nd example. Another girl not even that hot texted me that she doesnt like cabin crew because all the cabin crew and pilots she matched with wanted her just to come to their room and are lazy even to go to a lobby. Again I was like wtf this girl is having pilots and cabin crew hitting on her so much, and is not even that hot.

3rd I noticed a girl that I hanged out with sending pics of her chest to someone while talking with me.

4th thing in general I see women are very jealous as well, they often ask me or mention that I tinder/ hang out with many women, why I want her and stuff like this they want to feel special as well not just one of many, same as for guys i guess, despite them having full.phone of guys hitting on them...

It really makes me feel very bad how easy girls have it to get comfort and attention. How my life as man just feels like pain, I have to get rejected, flaked, ignored. No girl gives me comfort and makes me feel good just like that, u have to fight for them. And when I hear PUAs say how phone of attractive girls look like, that they have without any effort so much attention and comfort from men, even like 19 year old hot girl has phone full of men hitting on her, even old men, rich men, pilots, businessmen and who knows who else all pedestalizing them, showing affection, giving them love, compliments just like that. There is nothing like this in life of men and that is really hard to swallow for me that this is just how the things are and I have to deal with it. It hurts.

TLDR; does jealousy goes away with abundance, if u get women u stop carrying about things that I mentioned in examples? or u dont have this jealousy problem from the get go, maybe its how Ive been raised or something? Or do u just have to learn to live with it and it doesnt go away, life is just like that and it hurts move on?