Out of the blue, when I was nicely buzzed. She asks me about why I just cant say I am sorry. I explained calmly that I rarely if ever do anything I am sorry for. I might regret it with hindsight to view it, but still know that I made the decision with available data at the time. She pushed more, I explained that I have spent the last 14 years, and almost the entirety of my adult life at war. And that sorry was an excuse and not a solution. Addressing the problem and never doing it again was a solution the word sorry never would be. All in a clam tone. She gets visibly angry, says "So then its all about you then!" I reply that "I am the only one I can control with certainty", then go take a shower. I come out and she is naked and gives me a blowjob.

I am so god damned confused.