Looks wise I'm not bad (not model looks, but apparantly attractive when I dress well), and I even sometimes get approached/hit on in bars or clubs sometimes by women, but I pretty much squander every time by either act uninterested (a defense mechanism) or when I do speak I lack the spark, and character they'd hoped for - I'm too laid back and reserved. Likewise when I do speak to random girls, they quickly sense my awkwardness, and it's massive repellent. Ultimately I have very little confidence in my personality, and as we all know personality is the most important factor. The fact is I've always struggled with shyness. I just have this built in voice that will find me boring or awkward, which tends to be the case.

Deep down I know I'm not boring, I have a general interest in life, a lot of passions, and slightly weird sense of humour, but it takes a while for that to come out, and by then it's usually too late. It got to the point that I completely gave up on dating/meeting women for years, just drank loads when I went out, but I do need try and fix this mentality out first - it's a self-fullfiling prophecy.