Part of the reason I’m writing this out is so I can wrap my head around what I did, accept it, and move forward.

I’ve been practicing inner game and going out for over a year now. A few months ago, I meet this cute girl who turns out to live in a separate state but I do some Kino and teasing and I get her number anyway. We message back and forth on and off through the months. Fast forward to last weekend, I end up going to Boston (which is where she lives) to visit a few friends. So I hit her up and we plan to meet up at bar/club wherever is convenient on Sunday.

So I feel like I have everything planned out until my friends and I decide to first drink super hard at home before going out and we get totally black out drunk. My friends and I are puking and almost passed out by midnight. Yet, in the midst of me being highly intoxicated, I somehow have the bright idea to try to meet her where she’s at anyway by myself.

Next thing I know wake up alone in the morning on my friends couch. My memory is hazy at this point but I vaguely remember being at the bar/club with her and her friends and being annoyed/possibly behaving like an AFC. I apprehensively open my text messages and sure enough I’ve also drunk texted a bunch of random stuff to her. Making matters worse it seems like her ex broke up with her recently, and I was texting ‘nice’ things to her to try to make her feel better about the breakup.

Anyway, at this point I feel like its all a lost cause since I probably embarrassed the shit out of myself. So I send a one sentence apology text for being drunk out of my mind and assume that’s the end of that. However, she actually responds and her responses actually invite continued conversation which was surprisng. She seems friendly given how I might have behaved but I’m not necessarily getting a vibe that she’s interested.

So I have no idea how I should approach this at this point. I have no idea what in the world I said or did at the club but I’m pretty sure it was shit show. I might’ve puked on someone or proclaimed my love for her out of my drunken stupor. How should I approach this now? Should even I bother messaging her to figure out what happened or tell her I was blacked out? I assumed she would just stop talking to me if I made a fool of myself.

It kind of sucks because I think I could have pulled it off if I hadn’t been so drunk. But what happened has happened and I will have to digest all of it as a lesson and move forward.

Another reason this is disappointing is because I feel like if I behaved like an AFC when I was super intoxicated, I feel like it means my inner game progress hasn’t pervaded deep enough into the core of my personality.

TLDR; Met a girl from out of town and tried to meet up when I was in her town but got too drunk and blew everything up.