In high school, I had beta orbited this girl bad. My older posts will describe what I did, lots of late night issues with her car, homework, etc. The whole oneitis with her is what led me here, so in a way, I'm thankful for that.

Anyways, tonight she got to meet this all-male band backstage and posted IG photos, tweeted about how one kissed her, you and me both know what went on.

Fuck man. Fuck. I thought I had moved past these sentiments. I've been out gaming, getting numbers, starting to spin plates. But then I had this horrible regression. It's good to realise that every once in a whole you will slip up, and what's done is done. All I can do is to better learn to control my emotions.

But does anyone know how to cope with the fact that a woman's appearance can get her sex with famous men but we need to put so much more work in than just be born the right gender and decent looking to have sex with famous women?

What are your thoughts on this jealousy? What's the best way through it? How does one reconcile this imbalance in equality? It is easy to say to become that man, but the meta question for me is why are we jealous of something we know is transient?