Before i start the post lemme tell you about myself. I am 22 years old guy, not good looking, not even shaped well. I used to spend my days either in front of PC, playing games or just watching youtube videos. These past few years i see my life as a dull and didn't have anything to be proud of. Many pressure from family and future feels like it was really-really tiring to live with. Like i always said that "i could be better than this" but idk how to start with. I always think that i'm an unattractive person and people will leave me at the first sight. until...

Last day i go to a party where i ask my friend for a free pass, i tell him that i need a change of pace in my life. So i brave myself up and go to a party, i check how to dress up from r/streetwear and some other places and then i wash my mouth thoroughly since it was really important (last time i read a great post but i forgot from whom (maybe i'll edit it or if any1 willing to share the link to the post i'm totally fine).

I came too early, like 2 hours early and i sit in the bar order a beer and wait while playing Tinder, i was hoping that i could get a match for the party so i don't looked pathetic, but turns out tinder didn't give me any good results. After 11 PM, my friend came and i was seated near his circle, i know his circle but his circle kinda dislike me because of what i probably did in the past, then i decided to walk around the party looking for somebody to talk with. IT WAS HELL, like my self-esteem was on the ground nowhere to be found, i tried to talk to a girl but then she was like not interested in me so i decided to not continue with the convo.

But then there's another friend that came by and see me, he then put me with their circle where we kinda have a "fine-relationship" with, but still it's kinda weird to see their faces there, and i believe so does they. After a few drinks i saw a girl on the bar slightly looking at me, and i keep eye balling her for a while and she was smiling at me. She fix her cardigans and then go to the dance floor then go back, she looked like she was interested in our table but i believe she's just interested in me. After i split up with my table i go to the dance floor trying to steal some girls from a batch but failed then i saw her at the back of the bar. I asked her "Why don't you go there?", She said "It's too crowded" but then she approach my hands and drag me to the dance floor. At that time i believe it was a great success, we danced for a while have some intimate moments (no sex involved tho) then we go to the bar with her friend and she asks for my contacts (i repeat, SHE ASKED FIRST!). It was at that moment i say to myself, well done me, you've become a better person, than you would be before. Yeah she's not the best girl in the party that i could get, but look at the bright side, i overcome my own

Going to a club/party may be kinda shitty at first but if at that moment where i found the first girl that rejects me, i decided to go back to my place, i would say that party sucks, and i would not be proud of myself. I would never know the main idea of being attractive is to believe that you are attractive. If i don't brave myself up that girl will probably just go away and i will end up feeling like shit again.

tl;dr: Be confident, and you will love your life more.