When i was young i was always the loser. Never had a girlfriend, I was very skinny and people always made fun of me. I was really insecure.

I started to work on myself. I started working out, reading books about seduction and i really took action (going out every weekend) Now i’m 21 years old and for the first time in my life that i have multiple options. The most beautiful girls don’t scare me a bit.

The problem is that i’m turning myself into a narcissistic monster. I constantly need validation from others. It is never enough. I need more and more girls. I tell everyone about my adventures. I think about the 19 year old virgin that made fun off. I’m literally a douche bag now. I break relationships and almost a marriage. How to stop the validation seeking and just enjoy my experiences with girls?

Edit:

It’s not only with girls. If i played well in a soccer game i always need validation from others that i played good. If i don’t get it i search for it. Is just want to feel good about my own performance without the need of validation from other.