I've always been in my own head all the time. I've also been with a decent amount of women in my 30 years of life, but the last few years have been abysmal. A break up three years ago left me at the lowest state I've ever been in and it's been a constant struggle.

Recently I got into the habit of always saying 'yes' and just going out and doing things. I was outside my apartment yesterday when my new neighbors saw me and invited me out later. I went to the bar with them and their friends and met a girl that was in their group. She is incredibly pretty, and I spend some time with her. She is giving me mad IOIs and eye contact. I had to bow out earlyish and she made the comment "Am I going to see you again?" so of course I grab her number and we schedule a date for wednesday. Everything seemed fine as I left, she seemed really into me.

Fast forward to today and I sent her a text this morning "Hey it's (my name)" and some callback humor. Never got a reply.

Could it be that I just completely fucked it up and should have asked if she wanted to come back to my place? Did I fuck it up by trying to schedule a date with this girl? We were all drinking but she didn't seem visibly drunk but could it be she just forgot about me?

I'm really pissed right now because I probably could have pulled her back home, but me being a dumbass I scheduled a date in the future instead.

How do you get over these fuck ups and forgive yourself? I keep beating myself up about this.