My mom used to beat me and yell at me, and I was always picked on in school growing up. I can talk shit, but I still don’t really know how to deal with conflict.

Usually, I just cut that person off and call it a day, but this doesn’t work in social/work settings, especially around women.

Women always seem to want to test my confidence, but I don’t know how to respond when someone says something meant to offend me.

Because of how I was raised, I do not know how to process my emotions fast enough to address the situation outright…but I also do not want to.

Truthfully, I want to be violent in these moments. I want to hurt these people physically, but because that’s not an option and nothing else is satisfying, I just cut them off.

Sadly, women usually want you to put on a show in these moments, so I don’t know what to do. I know I will be alright if I avoid the conflict, but it might be hurting my reputation.