My journey in MRP began with an eyes opening honesty from you folks three years ago. I worked out my passive-aggressive behavior. I've realized and accepted that all change in my family comes from me, only I can change my situation for the better, and I have to say, things did become better.

I have a strong sex drive and admiration for beauty. I married a beautiful woman and can get sex nearly every time I initiate. Kids are doing great. I should be happy. Somehow this is not enough, and I want more. Here is what bothers me: a few times I got a call from wife during work, she wanted me to stop by to give me a bj.

On paper it sounds great, what's not to like? Initiative coming from her was a pleasant change of pace and the activity itself is fantastic. But I could not figure out why these events happened. Do I accept that sometimes things happen? Am I slipping back into Overt Covert Contract Guy trying to figure this out and manipulate to my advantage?

On one hand I want to figure this out, on the other it sounds like do X to get Y instead of simply continuing to work on myself.