My ex wife and I got a divorce 5 years ago when our child was 1. We all get along, communicate, and attend major events together. I met my ex wife when I was 15, and it’s one of those moments where no other woman mattered, and that’s how she’s always been in my head. She still is to this day. I’m happy with my life with my kid and my family. My worry is what this effect will have on my child who has never seen me with another woman, and only knows her mom to be with her boyfriend? I think as long as she sees I’m happy that’s all that matters, and I am. There’s a big fear that no relationship will ever be a sure thing like I had envisioned marrying someone to be. Our divorce was mutual, but only because I could see it didn’t matter what changes I made and that her mind had been made up for a while. The pain is still there for sure. I’ve gone on apps and met a person through mutual friends who I think is an awesome amazing woman, but she could almost instantly tell I was not fully stepping in by the end of our first date. We really hit it off. My concern is my child. I was raised to trudge forward and I will. I will admit I’m a very good crier which I believe more people should practice. Not too much because it’s awkward and why I never cry by a mirror. Thanks for reading, and hopefully someone can relate.