I genuinely don't understand.

10 days ago she was crying over me and to give us a chance to work on our issues. Mostly communication, nothing major. I Hurt her feeling many time and for the past two months we have been going through it, I didn't help by only wanting to sleep with her and not listening to her emotions and words because they did not make sense to me.

Now she is so adamant for divorce, I tried to plead, asked for therapy, told her I would do better, I have been begging for the past 3-4 days and she is bent over hell that we are over.

Now she asked for a couple of days to think about it. IDK what she is thinking about, why does she need 3 days to think if we are worth another shot?

It hurt me so bad, because I always envisioned a forever future for her. she always said we are for life..... now she said all those words mean nothing, all the trips around the world, means nothing, all the special time means nothing. I am so hurt and I don't understand why she need so much time to think about it because every minute passes I feel the hurt.

fuck! I know it's her friends who filed her head. it just suck and I know she won't come back and I have no idea how to handle it and I am so scared I would do something stupid. please help me