I have 3 things I’m worried about.

  1. My parents: the lady’s family is close knit, and they’re on very good terms together, sound healthy. In my situation, my parents are overly critical, can be petty, occasionally lie, and would risk my happiness/health over losing face. I can’t ever sit with them without them saying something critical about me.

Prior to this the lady I’m marrying was curious as to why I don’t speak much or confide in my family, but I had to make stuff up to not sound like an ingrate.

  1. I’m worried that she’ll end up just as judgmental and dismissive as everyone else in my life, and I’m really afraid to open up. I’m also worried that she’ll be disillusioned with them once she sees how they are with us. They can’t put up an act forever.

  2. I have difficulty opening up because it’ll be a torrent of negative emotions and I don’t want to burden her with all the bad things that happened to me before the marriage.

I live in a very religious/conservative society, so most I can do is text/call. I still don’t have her number, but we met a few times prior to this to talk, ask questions, and decide on things. I’ll have two to three months before our marriage to get to know each other better.