Posting because 2025 has been the worst year of my entire life. I am at rock bottom and feel like I have nowhere else to go.

Im 32 and my wife is 31. We were together from 2015-2025. Married since 2019. I made the grave decesion of entertaining a long distance emotional affair with a girl from my past. It was on/ off texting for a year.

When my wife found out, she took our 2 year old puppy and left in May. All I know is she moved states away and has started an entirely new life. For the first 3 months I tried to contact her, but to no avail. I found out around month 4 she was abroad with her ex from college.

Our 16 year old dog who stayed with me when she left died. I reached out to tell her he was dying and if she’d like to facetime him she could. Radio silence.

As I sit here at 1am, I can’t help but think what the fuck happened to my life. I lost both of my dogs and my wife all because I entertained some trash girl. I regret it all and this has been the hardest lesson I ever learned.

I miss my old life, my wife, and I miss my dog so much. My mind can’t accept shes totally erased me and moved on, but I guess its the reality. Hopefully come May I can find some peace when I file for divorce. I deserve this, I justified my emotional affair because it was ‘just texting’, but let my ruin of a life be a lesson for you all.

I guess the only thing I can do is learn from my choices.