I was the ultimate beta. But I'm not going into my past because I'm trying to get that bitch out of my head. I don't understand how everyone doesn't hate them

And that's my question. How do I get a chick that ADMITTEDLY fucked with my head for YEARS out of my head?

I'm lifting. Trying to acquire hobbies. Learning a language and working on my self esteem and self image. Learning solid frame had become a huge priority but things in my everyday life still effect me too much. Yes I'm reading the side bar. Working on internalizing the mentality to never be fucked with like this or any way ever again.

I have nearly zero game and shitty teeth (and I don't just mean crooked or yellow) so using another woman to forget her is pretty much out the question as that basically drops my smv to zero and hookers fuck terribly (I've only ever fucked hookers).

Sorry if this is unclear. I didn't sleep last night, I'm depressed and angry and I don't understand how women are not universally hated for the shit they pull. Bunch a fucking sociopaths.

Any suggestions here?

Edit: huge thanks to you guys. Here I am ready to spit fire and you guys charge in with great advice and wisdom. Props to you guys. I'm going to try and sleep now. I'll reply to any missed comments later in the day or tomorrow.

Thanks again guys.