Hi everyone, I feel like if I get this of my chest I'll be alot more relieved. I (18m) got into redpill when I was 14, due to stuff that happened to me (i wont get into it). I got in redpill at the early stages so none of the blatant hate towards women and extremism popped up when I was involved, or atleast not when i started. This was in 2021, I was in it for two years and watched hamza and some other gurus. Than around a half a year later it got more extreme, i.e if you dont work yourself to the brink you're a loser and it got more cultish.

I had alot of friends and had groups I'd hang out with alot of the time. By the time redpill was consuming my life, I was pushing them away and by a year in, I effectively had no friends and by the time redpill was done, completely destroyed my social skills. I became violent and angry, got into a lot of fights woth my family for stuff in the past (stuff I could've talked to them one to one with rather than being a monster). Hamza also wasn't slow9ng down, pretty sure if I remember it right he was calling his fans losers if they dont work enough. Or flexing how he makes more money then you and he's better than you at other things. So by the time I was out of redpill; I had no friends, no social skills, 0 hobbies or interests (only focused on how to make money and how to work myself to burnout), my family hated me, I had no one.

So for the next 2 years I literally wallowed In depression and was made fun of at school for being weird (redpill taught me some bs fuck it). My former friends ignored me, one used me, and I was fucked. I still suffer depressive bouts, mood swings, i think abt that shit alot. Now I play volleyball , football, bike, do videos for fun, play games, plant stuff. I have few friends (not as many as I had) and I'm telling this because I want ppl to not make my mistake again, pls I beg you if you have a family member or sm one you care abt younger than 18 and you find them watching this shit, pls stop them. I effectively ruined my life and teen years because of this bs, I still struggle to make friends even though I'm a social guy now. I'm still trying to find things to do with my time and try to make friends so I'm not bored and thinking abt redpill or loneliness, I also came to ask, what should I do? How can get off this path entirely and forget abt it make a better life?? I want to forget this but its glaring at me so badly I hate it for what its done to me and I want to feel like a person, not stuck in isolation on some days roomanating abt this. Pls if anyone has advice I would appreciate it.

If you made it this far, thank for hearing my story and I hope you learn from my mistakes.