U know what I find baffling and infuriating?Is how from the start of the year up until now I've had some play with women but never got laid like ever ,like if I could count the amount of girls I've had chemistry with,its unbelievable that none of them have been in my bedroom chambers and it honestly hurts cause like how?I'm talking about girls that really liked me ,we'd have the first meetup but when it comes to the second meet up or having them come over to my place it's like something would happen or something would come up for them or me it's either her or circumstances would change or whatnot but it's so weird cause it's been a recurring pattern for so long or I'd give up especially if they start showing low effort on their part.

Then comes the biggest sting of them all,finding out that other guys have smashed with little to no effort which tends to mess me up inside cause it makes me question myself whether am good enough or deserving I know it sounds ridiculous but given the frequency of my approaches and the amount of girls whom I think have showed genuine interest as well. HOW THE FUCK DID I NOT GET LAID,cause the most I'd get is smooches and ass grabs and all that.I don't know maybe it's self sabotage on my part I really don't get it maybe you'll remove this mist over my eyes