Have been getting pretty close with my hottest plate of about 2 months. She recently started initiating ‘the talk’ a couple times. I do like this chick and thought I’d play into it a little this time.

The previous times she brought it up she’d hint at exclusivity and I’d tell her “whatever happens, happens” and “let’s see how things go”. I’ve recently been concerned that I may be giving her too much comfort so decided to apply dread, flirting with other girls in college etc. She felt the dread big time. Let me get into where I fucked up...

She posted a gym pic on her Snapchat and I hit her with a ‘hey I’m a fucking giant faggot here’s some validation’. She replied “get in line babe” and I was kinda shook, expected something more “yeah come fuck me”-esque. I fed into it saying “I am the line babe” and she’s telling me “aw I can’t be just for you”, she’s saying this because of how my dread effected her. I tell her “I already knew you weren’t don’t worry” and she’s telling me how oh but we’re just having fun, we’re not serious etc. Threw me off at this point as she was talking about relationships a few days before. I started telling her oh I just want whatever is best and she’s talking about how she doesn’t think I like her etc but we are just having fun. I tell her I don’t expect a girl I’m not in a relationship with to be loyal to me she can do as she likes. I write some gay ass message roughly like: “sure I do like you, things have been going good so far and I just want whatever is best. You say it’s too early for what you said before it’s cool with me, like I said, I’m just letting things happen and seeing where it goes”. It was something like that, not exactly, it was fairly fucking gay. She replied with just “cutie”. I stopped fucking myself and told her “you want fun, I’ll give you more fun this weekend” and she told me “I’ll be waiting”.

Anyway enough of that bollocks. Sorry for the long gay post. Please, TRP, fuck me in the ass and tell me how much I’ve fucked up and tell me how I can recover from this fingering I’ve given myself. All advice very appreciated.