I'd like to thank the members of TRP for opening my eyes to a completely new aspect of the world, relationships, and the situation our civilization is currently in. This post is essentially a story about how I was brought down from being an Alpha to a whipped Beta. If any of my behaviors in any of the following situations were incorrect, please explain to me as such, and advise me on better approaches.

Little background information on me, I've had a dark past, and due to this have developed a few mental illnesses. Because of this it's difficult for me to trust people, open up to them, and many other social characteristics. Six months ago I met a girl, and I was recommended by my friends and her friends, for us to start dating. Before she came into my life, I used to have friends with benefits, get into fights, and I was mostly that quiet confident guy who would get loud if he needed to. I considered myself not to be a relationship type of person, but with the encouragement of my friends and hers, I thought to myself, "Alright, might as well try it. What's the worst that could happen?" Worst. Fucking. Mistake. The last six months of my relationship with this girl has been constant nagging, bitching, degradation, break-up threats, me being told I'm not even boyfriend material. And such things as, I quote, "You're the worst boyfriend I have ever had" being said to me. Yes, perhaps I made mistakes along the way. I'm new to relationships, I didn't know much. Perhaps these mistakes are due to my mental illnesses, perhaps not. All I know is I tried, and I tried very hard. I tried to be what she wanted me to be, tried to be that perfect boyfriend she craved. Along the ways of my attempt she would tell me that if I became rich I would be worthy of being with her, and that the only reason she was with me now was because of my looks. As if I had no character at all, and I offered nothing in the relationship. She would gloat and tell me how lucky I am to have a girlfriend like her, and how other women would never take my shit, saying that if she was me, she would count her blessings for having a girl like her. And like the idiot I was, I believed it. Last week her best friend degraded me in front of my girlfriend, telling me how I lack responsibility, how my girlfriend deserves a better guy, and I quote, "I want her to break up with you." After this humiliation, I had had enough. I became more assertive, doing as I pleased, and my girlfriend noticed this. She asked me why I was pushing her away, why I was being such an asshole, and how she liked the "old" me better. I was not trying to push her away. I was not trying to be an asshole. I was being me. The real me. How I was before this relationship, who I actually am. She told me she was tired of my shit, so I told her, "Good, you won't deal with it anymore." I broke up with her today, and I have ignored her completely. Her texts have included, "Breaking up isn't the answer." "You're going to regret this." "You aren't even capable of love." Apparently right after those texts, she went on a date with another guy, and she blamed me for the date going bad (she texted this to my best friend).

In all honesty, I feel amazing. I feel so free and relieved. I had lost such a huge part of who I was, obsessed with the idea of meeting the standards that she set for me. I was born an Alpha, I was being an Alpha, and somehow along the way I stumbled. But an Alpha always has the strength to get back up, and I have gotten up. I will became an Alpha again. I will be who I am meant to be. And no one will stop me.