I'ts literally been over a year. I dodged a huge bullet. This women was extremely low value. She was trash. My friends say so, my parents say so...but something about her..... She was just so over the top crazy/fun/sexual. Every second or third thing she'd say would be sexual. We would watch porn, have this insane sex. She was down to have sex anywhere and to do ANYTHING.She had a banging body as well and an amazing ass. I felt like i was in a porno every time i was with her. I'd always be laughing and having fun when i was with her.

She told me she has had 1 boyfriend (prior to meeting me) in her ENTIRE 20S and she is nearly 26 (further proof of her low quality).So why oh why do i miss and crave this crazy girl that may have ruined my life. She pretty much cheated on me (as you'd expect from a girl like her). I know she doesn't even remember me and probably fucked another 100 dudes since me.

So what's wrong with me? Is it low self esteem? Dopamine/Addiction problem? Or just my genetic make up / addictive personality?

I struggle to date girls and get so incredibly bored of "normal" girls after experiencing her. I wish i never met her as i still think about her to this day. She was like crack.