I discovered the subreddit a few weeks ago. Since then I have been reading no more mr. Nice guy and everything I can devour on this subreddit as far as posts. First a little bit of background,

I displayed all the background and behaviors of the nice guy from the book no more mr. Nice guy growing up and through college. It's painfully apparent reading the book even though it's not obvious when you're living it. I've been a policeman for the past 20 years and I'm getting ready to retire and was very Alpha for the first 10 to 12 years of my career before an investigation took the wind out of my sails. I live in a very anti-union State and tried to start a union for our Police Department. The head of the department was directed to reopen some use of force reports that I've been cleared in and to find fault which resulted in my termination. that combined with a 16-year marriage on the downhill slide took the wind right out of my sails and I turned beta as fuck.

After my divorce Paxil put me back into Alpha mode because I just didn't give a fuck and could approach anyone and screw for hours because of the sexual side effects of the medication. Found a beautiful new wife and settled down into a new career where I make pretty good money, actually really good money for what I'm used to.

I had the working out and the hygiene covered already because of my divorce spurred me to go back into the dating scene and I've continued that. I'm excelling in my career and feel good about that part. About a year after I got married my wife started shit test and comfort test and I didn't recognize them for what they were and I was giving her everything she wanted without any questions at all. It really is amazing after reading on the subreddit I can identify ways she was just begging me to take over and be Alpha.

She grew up in a very structured family with rigid gender roles and her parents have both passed away so I really don't have a frame of reference other than what she has told me. But she has literally been begging me to be Alpha over the past year. She would never permit me to talk to her about the money except for to ask me whether she should spend what she wanted to spend. She always told me to go out with my friends sometimes. always wanting me to make decisions about where to go what to eat where to plan vacations without her input. looking back now it is incredible how much she was overly communicating to me to step up and take over and make her subjective to my will. The sex has been shit and the usual whiny arguments happened after being over in dead bedrooms reading.

Over the last week I have really been stepping up putting into practice the concepts in the book and on this Reddit. Several shit tests and Comfort tests later and cut to this morning. We're camping and I've anchored the boat down the beach, we wake up and I Started a groper and kiss her but the kids were in the trailer and we were just separated by a curtain. She got annoyed and started slapping my hands away and I just kept at it and told her to calm down. I told her I needed to go down and check on the boat and was going to take it out for a ride and she immediately told me not to leave without her. I went down and started prepping the boat at the beach and she came to the edge of the hill and looked down and then walked back to the trailer where I couldn't see her. After about 2 minutes I call her phone and ask her where she is and she says, I came back to get the boys and see if they wanted to go. Old me, " Oh ok, have them hurry.". New improving me says, " I asked if you wanted to come with me on the boat, if I wanted them to come I would have asked them then, are you coming?". She said fine and hung up.

A minute later she comes to the beach and I give her my best smile. I get her on board and the first thing she says is a shit test, "Why are you being so ornery?". Which I just shook my head at and started backing out. Frowning and scowling and sighs as I sped across the lake which I ignored and looked majestic as I stood and piloted my craft while talking to her about how much I love boating.

We pulled into a cove on the other side of the lake which winds back in for about 1/2 mile. Several people anchored camping on their boats and she says she doesn't like the cove. "What's not to like? It's calm and pretty back here.". Two minutes later she fixes me with a stare and says, "You brought me out here to have sex with me on the boat didn't you?"

"Absolutely I did." I reply. Her head starts shaking and I just start nodding. " You knew that from the moment I was messing with you at camp.".

It was constant no and too many people here, they'll know etc until I beached it and opened the cuddy cabin. I motioned her inside and she acted all butt hurt but went. Once I got her out of her swimming suit I found she was already ready to go and I mean wetter than she's been in like a year. And I was expecting the Sahara. After about 10 things that would have caused a fight before when I was being beta she was more ready than ever. It's crazy how quickly things are coming together and I can't believe how stupid I have been not seeing her begging for her strong man back in her life.

After all that text, I should say that I still have to consciously make myself alpha because it freaks me out she will have beef. But I'm not going back that's for damn sure.