It finally clicked. I am the cause and solution to not only my problems but the problems that my family faces. Up to this point I have failed but no more. I was introduced to the MRP philosophy over a year ago but at that time I saw no issue and thought that gaming your wife and having this background/unspoken plan for the direction you and your family are headed as dishonest. I have let myself go both physically and mentally for sometime now. The last month or so I have seen the things in my wife that the introducer of MRP philosophy said would be there if I didn't change my ways. She is disinterested in me, period. That encompasses all facets of our marriage. When we have sex, I engage and hope that she is "in the mood". She does not see me as a prize that she gets to have because in my current state I am not that. When we got married 10 1/2 years ago she was DTF whenever, where ever. I was in pretty good physical condition, reading and improving mentally and felt (more importantly portrayed) that I had the world by the balls. I got complacent, felt that I had made it and things were set and I could just cruise. These are not things that I thought consciously but things that started to show through in my lack of pursuit for bigger and better. I am here asking for help, the books that are listed to read are en route, is there a specific order in which they should be read? I have started lifting again, I am watching what I eat and paying attention to not only how I look but (embarrassingly) how clean I keep myself. I would like for my current wife to desire me again but I want to forge my path in such a way that I regain that confidence and lust for life and the little things in it. If she stays awesome, if not there are, how does it go, plenty of fish in the sea. I have been reading posts on this thread for about two weeks now and decided the best way to make the changes happen is to dive in head first and be the changes that I want to see. There is a lot of experience here and I am hoping to take away some sound advice that I can APPLY to make my world the most it can be. I am open to any and everything: shoot.