There was a time when my marriage was hell. Then after much self improvement with the help of TRP and this sub and reading, lifting etc. things with me got much better. During my journey I was withdrawn. Quiet. In her words it was like I didn't even want to be around her. She was convinced I was having an affair. I wasn't. I was rebuilding my brain, body, outlook, everything.

My wife came to the realization that she could easily lose me.

Now, I have a wife who loves being dominated. Loves giving blow jobs, will do it when she's on her period. Can't go more than two days without me in her. Doesn't piss and moan any more if I so much as ask her to scratch my back.

Here's the thing....

I am really not that interested in having sex with her. When she yammers on constantly about stupid shit like the details on what she plans on doing for the entire day I just want her to shut the hell up so I can have some piece and quiet.

I don't jerk off. I mean at all. No porn, no nothing. We have sex all the time. But I just don't know that I want to. There are times when I really have to use my imagination to even cum. I'll think about this woman that I talk to at work who is 5'2'', weighs maybe a hundred pounds an is cute as hell. Sometimes, no matter what I do, I just can't! She gets hurt, I feel bad, then she says we'll try again tomorrow. And a part of me is like fuck...tomorrow? Fuck.

I feel like, if I don't have sex with her I'll have to deal with her getting all depressed and have to listen to her paranoia that I'm not into her any more. So basically I'm just having sex to again, shut her the hell up so I don't have to talk about her feelings.

So anyway, I'm at a loss. I am just frustrated at myself that I cannot figure this out. What the hell is going on with me?